I’ve always wanted to do planking but too shy to do so. Since I’m not in my home country, somehow I’m braver, so I did it any way.

Here’s my first ever planking photo taken at New York Public Library @ Universal Studio Singapore! 

Damn *paiseh* coz my sis took ages to snap a photo and darn a lot of people looking. I planked there for so long that perhaps people would thought that I died or fainted. But err… nvm. I’m *thick skinned*. LOL.

Anyway, my plank is just so normal. Look at the rest of the plank photos here! Some people even plank on top of tigers!

Some, just doesn’t last.

And some words just last forever, so, choose your words wisely.

I guess this often happens?

Remember this, as time passes, people change, things change, be ready to accept the changes.

We have been through this.

And this… when you just hope the person was right beside you.

It feels like you’re drowning. But, just keep your head above.

Why? Why? WHY?!

Don’t let sadness wins.

Perhaps, it’s time to stop hurting. You still need to move on afterall.

Let it go…

Don’t do that when you are not ready. It hurts the person.

This is what I’m trying to say. Just wait till you’re ready, again. If it’s yours, it’s yours.

Let the feelings of sadness drown into the sea, and you? Just stay right there and watch.

Did you know that the heart has no pain receptors? So next time someone breaks your heart, move on. Your pain is just an illusion, a temporary psychological disturbance that you have to overcome. In short, it’s all in your head.

And me? It’s time to close this chapter. And thanks to everyone for everything, for being there for me.

Times flies.

Yes, time is cruel, it doesn’t wait for anyone. Can you believe that we are at the end of the first quarter of 2012 already? Geez… four months have passed just like this!

I found a picture taken when I was still a kiddo. I guess I was around 3 years old that time?

13 years passed like this and I’m all grown up now.

Yes, I know… I’m not young anymore.

Any difference?

Sigh… how I wished I could turn back time and goes back to school again. I guess, school is still the best time of all stages?

One of the hardest thing to accept is that my best friend who is the same age as me is married, okay that’s normal, and she’s a mom now, and I’m the “nai ma“, who doesn’t breastfeed the “nai chai“. LOL. I know there are many people who have kids at this age too, but it just feels very different when your own best friend turns a mom now.

Oh, that’s one day old baby Damon. Very very adorable! Have both the parents’ look.

According to his mum, he only interested with leng lui, ever since he was still in her womb. So young already know how to see lenglui, I can’t wait for him to grow up handsomely and kau sei lui.

Oh, that kid with me? His name is Zachary and he’s one cute and brilliant kid! He’s so adorable that you just wants him to stick around with you. Did I just sounded like I wanted a kid by myself already? LOL. He cares a lot of baby Damon and kept taking tissue wanting to wipe his tears and kissing him too. He is very, very sweet!

Not like I dun have kids, I have 3, and furry ones.

So, in the meantime I just practice my mum skills on them. They wear diapers too okay? So I roughly know about baby diapers too.

They are love of my life! That’s Yori, Kenji and Hiro there.

They photobombed me when I was camwhoring after a good jog.

Talking about jog, I’m starting to train for my marathon. My first ever marathon would be the coming month’s Energizer Night Run. I’m totally excited and anxious about it, but it’s just a fun run as a start. I’m trying to run at least 3 times a week and not slack off, coz I know if I dun do so… I’ll just become lazier and and eventually fatter and fatter coz my metabolism just don’t work as good as last time anymore. But I’m not sure if I’m pushing myself too hard, I realize my calf muscle are bigger now, and firmer too. Would it just becomes firmer and bigger as the same size as my thigh? That would be such a disaster!!! Oh, joining marathon is my last year’s new year resolution. Since I didn’t achieve it, I might as well just fulfill it this year. Anyway, I feel good after a good jog, and I would say, it’s one of the best alone time one would ever have too.

And since I have so much of alone time, I’ve started my bucket list and slowly cross out the things I’ve done from the list. I’ll share you the list next time. It’s so long and some I find it pretty much impossible to achieve. But, I’ll try my best!

This year will be a different year, it’s already different in some sense… So, I wrote some hope and wishes during Chinese New Year on the sky lantern and let it up high into the sky at Taman Jaya on Chap Goh Meh(15th day of Lunar New Year).

A lot of people did the same too and the skies looks as though it’s filled up with fireflies. I’ve never seen so many sky lantern at one place before. Pretty amazing sight.

But our main intention to Taman Jaya on that day wasn’t because of the sky lantern, becoz we wanted to hurl oranges into the pond and find true love.

Okay… just joking about the true love part. We did it just for fun only, furthermore my friend is already in a relationship. But yeah, people actually hurl oranges and hope someone will picked up their oranges and contact them and hopefully that’s their true love. But seriously, there were so many oranges in the pond, if the one person picks up yours and contact you, I guess that’s some sorta fate in a way. My friend who is in a relationship did receive a call and she told the guy the truth of her current status. And me? I receive no call. I won’t receive any call coz I put fb links instead. LOL. But I didn’t receive any messages also. But anyway, as I mentioned I did it just for fun so I didn’t expect for any messages too.

I got myself a charm bracelet. Able to guess the theme?

It’s Safari by the way. Hope the charm bracelet could be my lucky charm and bring me more good luck! =)

Before I end this, here’s a video which brings back a lot of memories to me, and I’m sure to you too. It’s so nostalgic. Enjoy!

Anyway, this is rather a random post for the night! Nite everybody!

It was only 4 months, but the time for me felt like forever, it’s been a roller coaster ride of life. Been hit by waves of challenges, and I survived.

I learned to live, half alive. And yes, I’m still alive. 4 months back, my beloved Suki went missing, my life trembled. I kinda crashed, I risked my life, searching for her again.

Hope and believe, is what kept me moving. The nervousness and hope to put on every time I received a call bout found dog, every single time. Then, I was crushed in the end… So, I try to learn, not putting such high hopes, again. But, there’s still a believe, that she’s alright, somewhere, well taken care of. At least, that’s what I want to believe.

Everyday, I dream. I dreamed that I’ll see her face again when I open the door, with her standing there wagging her tail, oh yeah and shaking her butt too, greeting me with her sharp pitch bark. Oh boy, I missed her so badly. I lost my inspiration for blogging, she was the one that got me motivated blogging by starting of with http://petssionate.blogspot.com . Without her now, I just lost it. But think again, I can’t just let this die off, I want to let it live, forever, and I’ll always remember her.

With all the sadness, disappointment and despair. Then, there came a new hope… something that I thought it will be forever. But, it just wasn’t. I was naive. Having to put up to lost a love of 6 years, someone who sleeps with you every nite… I had to lose another love of almost 8 years, someone who I spent most of my time with for the last 8 years. I didn’t see it coming soon enough. I didn’t have enough time to prepare myself for the next wave of sadness.

It wasn’t easy, it’s still not easy, and it will never be easy. When things like this happen, I hated my life. I blamed myself, I blamed destiny, I blamed fate, I blamed god… Why has it got to be me? Perhaps that’s becoz I just wasnt good enough? I didn’t do good enough?

For days, weeks, and months, I just hope that I won’t be awake anymore, or maybe just fall into amnesia, be it temporary or permanent, short or long, coz it’s hard to face another day. I still do feel the same, but I kept telling myself hard that it will be a better day tomorrow, so I put up a smile every day, to face another brand new day. There’s a quote with me, which helps pushes me on everyday.

When bad things happen, good things come.

When I lost Suki, I came to believe with humanity. My close friends, people who I have not met, people who I wasnt even close with, came to help, some even put up with extra mile. I’m thankful and grateful for everything and help that they offered. I dunno how could I ever repay them.

Losing her, makes me fully understand how it’s like, to lose the one you really love, and how it was. So, when I came across a lost dog, I try to reunite them with the owner. I managed to reunite mixed terrier with it’s owner, who I called him Whitie, but soon found out his real name is Marco.

Then, I came across a poodle, which managed to reunite with the owner in an hour time.

Then, a silky terrier, which a guard found and informed me, it was kept at the guard house, I gave him some food and water. After a few days, the owner managed to reunite with the dog.

Then, a Shih Tzu, a remarkable escape artist, which could be lost 3 times and found by different people and informed over to me. I guess that’s fate. i tried hard to search for it’s owner, but luck just isn’t on my side. But i’m glad, i’ve found him a new home, that, should be his forever home now.

All this, I wouldn’t be able to do it without a help of a fosterer, Koo, who I got to know after Suki was missing. I’m glad to know a new friend, he’s truly an animal lover. I salute him for all the effort of the rescue mission.

There were good things that happen, and there were some bad ones, where people trying to get advantage of you.. which that kinda led to my lost love…

Life, just isn’t the same again. Me? I lost myself.

Once, I read an article bout break up, depression and songs. It may not be easy to describe how we feel or what we’re going through, that’s how we relate ourselves to a certain song which sings our heart out. So, here’s some part of songs I taken out from different songs that kinda sing out what’s inside me.

If you ever leave me, baby,

Leave some morphine at my door

Cause it would take a whole lot of medication

To realize what we used to have,

We don’t have it anymore.

 

- It Will rain, Bruno Mars -

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According to you I’m stupid, I’m useless

I can’t do anything right

According to you I’m difficult, hard to please

Forever changing my mind

 

I’m a mess in a dress, can’t show up on time

Even if it would save my life

According to you, according to you

 

- According To You, Orianthi -

—————-

When all that you’ve tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,

It seems like you’re wired, to stay here held in time,

Cuz nothing seems to change, oh no.

No nothing’s gonna change, at all.

I can see it in your face, the hope has gone away.

if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.

Oh cuz sometimes, faith and your dreams will collide.

 

- Holes inside, Joe Brooks -

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I’m so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave

Your presence still lingers here and it won’t leave me alone

 

These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real

There’s just too much that time cannot erase

 

When you cried, I’d wipe away all of your tears

When you’d scream, I’d fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

 

You used to captivate me by your resonating light

Now, I’m bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

 

- My Immortal, Evanescence -

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The scars of your love remind you of us

They keep me thinking that we almost had it all

The scars of your love, they leave me breathless

I can’t help feeling

 

- Rolling In The Deep, Adele -

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And I told you to be patient

And I told you to be fine

And I told you to be balanced

And I told you to be kind

 

And now all your love is wasted

Then who the hell was I?

‘Cause now I’m breaking at the britches

And at the end of all your lines

 

Who will love you?

Who will fight?

Who will fall far behind?

 

- Skinny Love, Birdy -

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Notice me take my hand

Why are we strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

 

Every time I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And every time I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it’s haunting me

I guess I need you baby

 

I make believe

That you are here

It’s the only way

I see clear

What have I done

You seem to move on easy

 

- Everytime, Britney Spears -

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I’m so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I’m sorry that it came true but sorry doesn’t turn back time

For all that I have done to you

I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

Sorry that I held you tight

 

- Sorry that I Loved You, Anthony Neely -

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Never mind, I’ll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you, too

Don’t forget me, I begged, I remember you said

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

 

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday was the time of our lives

We were born and raised in a summer haze

Bound by the surprise of our glory days

 

Nothing compares, no worries or cares

Regrets and mistakes, they’re memories made

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

 

- Someone Like You, Adele -

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So you sailed away

Into a gray sky morning.

Now I’m here to stay,

Love can be so boring.

Nothing quite the same now,

I just say your name now.

 

But its not so bad,

You’re only the best

I ever had.

You don’t want me back.

You’re just the best

I ever had.

 

And it may take some time

To patch me up inside.

But I can’t take it

So I run away and hide.

And I may find in time

That you were always right.

You’re always right.

 

- Best I ever Had, Vertical Horizon -

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And who do you think you are?

Runnin’ ’round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

 

- Jar of Hearts, Christina Perri -

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If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

 

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I’ll sell ‘em for a dollar

They’re worth so much more after I’m a goner

And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singing

Funny, when you’re dead how people start listening

 

- If I Die Young, The Band Perry -

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At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away

 

- Everytime, Britney Spears -

Who Am I, really?

I’ve been thinking to change hair style for a longest time.

I did curl before and I looked ugly, somewhat more mature too.I actually wanted a soft cute curl. Curl requires too much attention, I need to spend more time styling it up and too much of a hassle too.

Not to mention curl and dye at the sometime damaged my hair and I ended cutting it off and did rebounding again.

So curl is kinda outta my mind, I’m just too lazy for that.

But I didn’t have the courage to cut it shorter too. I’ve cut it like really short when I was in high school before. So, I’m afraid that I’ll look old and chubby faced and I won’t be able to do anything bout it unless a hair extension or wearing a wig daily till it grows back again.

So I ended up having long straight rebounded hair for the longest time.

The most I did was cutting my fringe short and that’s it.

This is in full make up by the way. =D

Voon have been also telling me that I could try a slight longer than shoulder length hair and that I’ll look good in it.

So since it’s adi end of year now and Chinese New Year is around the corner. I decided to give it a go now. So if I look ugly in this short hair at least by CNY my hair would have grew another few cm long.

So say hello to short hair!

What do u think? Long hair? Or short hair?

When we talk about Christmas, people like me who have never experience a white Christmas before look forward to that.

I always imagined it to be nice, thick, fluffy, white snow covering the landscape with huge Christmas tree decorated with ornamental, garlands, tingle, candy canes and lit up bright with Christmas light and a star placed on top of the tree and Christmas song playing in the background. Oh, not forgetting the Christmas gift at the bottom of the Christmas tree and surprises in the socks! No… not in my worn smelly worn socks! Since there’s no snow in MALAYSIA, I guess the closest we could get is hail Christmas!. LOL

If there’s no one giving me any Christmas gift, I hope that at least Santa Claus would give me a packet of biscuit, at least. Or better still, grant my wish! Only if he has special power. Hmmm… Perhaps I should start writing a letter to Santa like the movie where people write letters to Juliet in Letters to Juliet. Since Santa have so many reindeers, perhaps they could easily find and return my Suki back to me.

But matter of fact is that White Christmas may not be as what I’ve imagined it to be, I could picture myself curling up in thick blanket with heater at home instead.

Anyway, the snow in the picture is fake, it’s photoshopped in. Are you nuts? wearing like this under the snow? It’s almost humanly impossible. At least for me, it’s IMPOSSIBLE.

I matched my brown pants with my beige hair flower pin and my favourite brown bag. The pants is RM30 bought from a shop at Asian Avenue at Sunway Pyramid while the hair pin is RM10 for 3 from Jonker Street, Melacca.

Grey tank Top from Cotton On, socks from can’t-remember-where, own necklace from flea market, The Curve and the shoes are from flea market at The Curve too @ RM59.

But anyhow, I would still love to experience White Christmas someday! I’m sure many of you are already int he Christmas mood or holiday mood already! Have you gotten any Christmas gift for your beloved yet? start shopping now!

Here’s my Christmas song for all of u! I listen to it every Christmas!

Enjoy! =)

Merry Christmas! ;D

Xmas is supposed to be a month from now but I’m adi in the festival mood! Besides, it’s a special day today. Not only becoz it’s 20.11.2011 today, but it’s also special in another way.

Guess what??? Faster guess!

Still couldnt guess?

Okay I’ll cut the crap!

I’ve just got my surprise BIG xmas present today!

When I say BIG, I do mean BIG! Ready?

Tadaaaaaaa!!!!!

A Samsung Galaxy Note!

Totally loving it! May be Santa Claus is real and he heard my wish on 11.11.11 11.11am, so he granted my wish early this year since he’ll be very busy later on.

Btw, this phone, it’s awesome, i dunno how to describe it. Go get one and you’ll know what I mean! =D

Can we not grow old?

It’s been 25 years since the day I was born. I’ve grown up from a chubby lil gal to what I am now.

Bah… I wanna stay young, like forever 21. Some says it’s not a year older, but just a year wiser.

Being another year older means an extra line of wrinkle to be concealed. =(

Back in 21.

I was still wearing contact lenses.

Oh that’s how Suki looks like when I was 21.

She was a year old.

Just like me, she was young, and cute too. =p

That’s Suki with her long coat, looking messy and clumsy.

Okay… That’s me looking ugly with my spectacles. But I’ll usually wear contact lenses whenever I’m out.

When I’m 21, turning 22, I underwent a surgery. NO, not a plastic surgery. But an eye lasik which you can read more about it here. I was about to get my eye lasik when that pic was taken.

Times flies… Suki and I both have both grown older now.

See the difference? Suki actually looks older too…

I dunno how to describe it, dogs do look older even though they dun have wrinkles. But she still looks young here, coz I groom her with the puppy cut! She’s forever a baby in my <3.

Anyway, styling up to be young again is what makes me feels young again. Frills, ribbons, socks, hairbands! That’s one way of deceiving myself. =\

This is me on my 25th birthday at work.

Wearing a cutie pink ribbon belt with a matching pink lace frills socks to work! =D Spotted something else? I’m still wearing my freedom key pendant to date! That’s one meaningful key, not just any key.

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NO.

I’m not having Dissociative Identity Disorder.

I’m still me, EMERYN, who loves to camwhore.

What do you think?

Try this the next time when you’re waiting for the wedding ceremony to start. Time flies super duper fast without you noticing it. So, you won’t end up sitting there whining bout the “Malaysian time” even though you’ve camwhore like hours there with ur frens.

That’s what I did! At my friend’s wedding dinner. =) Show you more of the pics, soon. k?

If you’re a Malaysian, you would know what day is 709. Even if you’re not Malaysian, probably, you would have already heard bout 709.

It’s a day to be remembered, a day people want a change, a day people stand up for their rights, a day people wants a clean and fair election, a day of peaceful demonstration.

It’s “YELLOW” Day(people dress in yellow). The correct term is Bersih 2.0 rally. It’s also known as Walk of Democracy, where the peaceful demonstration takes place on 9th July 2011 which we also call it 709.

The Bersih 2.0 rally (also called the Walk for Democracy) was a demonstration in Kuala Lumpur held on 9 July 2011 as a follow-up to the 2007 Bersih rally. The rally, organised by the Coalition for Clean and Fair Elections (Bersih), was supported by Pakatan Rakyat, the coalition of the three largest opposition parties in Malaysia, but was deemed illegal by the government. Bersih, chaired by former president of the Bar Council Ambiga Sreenevasan, were pushing the Election Commission of Malaysia (EC) to ensure free and fair elections in Malaysia. It demanded that the EC clean up the electoral roll, reform postal voting, use indelible ink, introduce a minimum 21-day campaign period, allow all parties free access to the media, and put an end to electoral fraud.

Read more about Bersih 2.0 Rally in Wikipedia here.

There were about 10,000 to 20,000 people turned up for the rally and to march to Merdeka Stadium.

Where was I? I didn’t take part in rally, I was prohibited from going out by my parents. Totally understood, my parents doesn’t even allow me to take public buses since young, moreover a rally?

This is the day, where our Malaysian Lady of Liberty is named.

Anne Ooi, 65 year-old, from Setapak, took a bus ride down to KL, ALONE, in support of the rally. She was stopped 4 times, being asked her IC, and questioned by the police on why shes wearing yellow. “why cant I wear yellow?” was her reply. she didnt know what time the rally was scheduled to start, she didnt know where, she has no one with her; all she knew was to get down to KL, and stand for what she believes in.

It’s supposedly to be a peaceful demonstration, however, it ended up chaotic, undesirable ending. Read about it, it’s all over the Internet.

Since I didn’t participate, I’ve been able to be part of the MV of 709阿JIB哥唔沖涼 by EVYbody. Just a cameo la of coz!