Some, just doesn’t last.

And some words just last forever, so, choose your words wisely.

I guess this often happens?

Remember this, as time passes, people change, things change, be ready to accept the changes.

We have been through this.

And this… when you just hope the person was right beside you.

It feels like you’re drowning. But, just keep your head above.

Why? Why? WHY?!

Don’t let sadness wins.

Perhaps, it’s time to stop hurting. You still need to move on afterall.

Let it go…

Don’t do that when you are not ready. It hurts the person.

This is what I’m trying to say. Just wait till you’re ready, again. If it’s yours, it’s yours.

Let the feelings of sadness drown into the sea, and you? Just stay right there and watch.

Did you know that the heart has no pain receptors? So next time someone breaks your heart, move on. Your pain is just an illusion, a temporary psychological disturbance that you have to overcome. In short, it’s all in your head.

And me? It’s time to close this chapter. And thanks to everyone for everything, for being there for me.

Can we not grow old?

It’s been 25 years since the day I was born. I’ve grown up from a chubby lil gal to what I am now.

Bah… I wanna stay young, like forever 21. Some says it’s not a year older, but just a year wiser.

Being another year older means an extra line of wrinkle to be concealed. =(

Back in 21.

I was still wearing contact lenses.

Oh that’s how Suki looks like when I was 21.

She was a year old.

Just like me, she was young, and cute too. =p

That’s Suki with her long coat, looking messy and clumsy.

Okay… That’s me looking ugly with my spectacles. But I’ll usually wear contact lenses whenever I’m out.

When I’m 21, turning 22, I underwent a surgery. NO, not a plastic surgery. But an eye lasik which you can read more about it here. I was about to get my eye lasik when that pic was taken.

Times flies… Suki and I both have both grown older now.

See the difference? Suki actually looks older too…

I dunno how to describe it, dogs do look older even though they dun have wrinkles. But she still looks young here, coz I groom her with the puppy cut! She’s forever a baby in my <3.

Anyway, styling up to be young again is what makes me feels young again. Frills, ribbons, socks, hairbands! That’s one way of deceiving myself. =\

This is me on my 25th birthday at work.

Wearing a cutie pink ribbon belt with a matching pink lace frills socks to work! =D Spotted something else? I’m still wearing my freedom key pendant to date! That’s one meaningful key, not just any key.

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SADmeryn, KINKYmeryn, HAPmeryn, NOTTImeryn, ANGERmeryn, DEPRESSmeryn, SIAOmeryn, JOYmeryn, TRUSTmeryn, FEARmeryn, OPTImeryn, AGGREmeryn, AWEmeryn, LOVEmeryn, CHEERmeryn, LUSTmeryn, SHOCKmeryn, SUBmeryn…

NO.

I’m not having Dissociative Identity Disorder.

I’m still me, EMERYN, who loves to camwhore.

What do you think?

Try this the next time when you’re waiting for the wedding ceremony to start. Time flies super duper fast without you noticing it. So, you won’t end up sitting there whining bout the “Malaysian time” even though you’ve camwhore like hours there with ur frens.

That’s what I did! At my friend’s wedding dinner. =) Show you more of the pics, soon. k?

So, what do you think?

Below is the one I’ved used before this, which I really love, I did some customization as well,  but I think it’s time to change to something new.

After browsing/surfing/searching wordpress ready theme for days and nights, I’ve finally found the one a few that caught my attention.

It’s not easy, I gotta tell you. I’ve got limited choices, it’s not exactly that I dun have choices, but more of that I’m pretty picky. I wanted a theme that gives me 3 columns, black background (coz many of my previous fonts has light colour font), a space for header photos, and those that easily customized. It takes a lot of effort and clicking around. So, these are the few that caught my attention.

Adventure Journal (I kinda like this)

Leather Note

Bombax

And finally the one I’ve chosen, Shiword !

I’m still in the midst of customizing here and there a little. I think the blue colour is a lil boring. What do you think of the design and colour? Lemme know! I’d be really glad to receive any feedbacks. =)

*Cheers and lotsa love~*

Emeryn

From today onwards, my name is no longer Emeryn. The identity will be erased.

I’m an Agent Dogledile™ now, working for undisclosed sector.

That’s all I could disclose for now, till then!

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Okay… I was dreaming, dreaming big, dreaming fantasy. The Salt movie and contest must have gotten into me.

I recently joined a contest organised by Sony Pictures Malaysia and there is 5 mission to be completed and the final task is to take a best looking photo as an agent to expose Evelyn Salt. Here‘s my photo submission.

Initially the photo looked a lil too simple, it doesn’t really stand out then I decided to add my plush croc in it too.

Thanks to Hui Wen whom help me to take these photos.

But if I am really an agent, my cover would be like this, act like a lil kiddo.

I dun wanna grow old. =\

If you know me well enough, I have like 1000000000000 of typos every time I chat. I can’t help it. If you do not know why, it’s because I type only with 2 fingers.

Hey, dun play play, I type pretty fast with 2 fingers okay? Just that it looks like the keyboard have done something very wrong to me and I whack on the keys super hard till some of the alphabets sticker came off.

I received this forwarded mail earlier.

Eonverye taht can raed tihs rsaie yuor hnad.

Only great minds can read this
This is weird, but interesting!

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too

Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno’t mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

So, those who usually dun understand my typos, that proves that you do not have a great and strange mind? You better start taking more vitamins or herbs to improve that!

I’m animal like. No, I dun mean I act like one or party like one. But people haave been saying I look like one instead, from squirrel, to puss in the boots, to dogs, to cat, to rabbit, and recently to Koi fish.

Wait a sec. WHAT? KOI FISH? Which part of me looks like a fish?!

Let’s see.

Dog alike. I accept this, coz I love making the big head dog photos. Anyway, that’s my Hiro boy.

Kangaroo alike. Okaaaaaaay…I guess it’s the teeth.

Wallaby alike. Hm.. perhaps our pose coincidently the same?

Sugar glider alike. People usually say I’m squirrel like, but I think I’m more to sugar glider.

Giraffe alike. Okay, maybe this is not that alike, just the sausage lips!

Puffer fish alike. Chubby face makes me looks like a puffer fish here.

Cat alike. I look silly like the cat with the pomelo head! LOL.

Cat alike again, I guess the pose is just similar only.

So far I could admit I look a bit like those, but why on earth Koi fish?! They’re not cute!!!!

So, to be honest, which animal do I really look like?

Do you remember how pain was it on your first time? You wanna shout out loud or grab something tight to release the pain, right?

That’s how I felt, sooooooooooooooo pain, sooooooooooooooo emo, sooooooooooooooo frustrating! I so wanna cry out loud now. *sob sob~*

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Oh gosh, my beloved car. You’re only less than 2 years old, and it’s your first time to have a big scar now(I know you dun really have scar, I’ve taken care of you well all these while), how hurtful to see you like that. It’s my fault that you’re hurt, and I’m hurting inside to see you like that, especially my wallet too! =”(

Do you believe that when you’re poor, you’ll poor to the max, and when you have bad luck, it’ll be bad luck to the max? That’s what I’m having now. =| Poor is just one thing, luck just isn’t on my side make it worse.

Having an acne breakout now is frustrating and irritating enough for me, then my beloved camera that I always use for camwhoring is spoilt, my msn have virus, I got screwed for no reasons, I burnt my feet by stepping on my hair straightener by accident, and now, my car door is dented and the paint came off!!!

Seriously, what’s next? I felt like my heart was being stabbed with a sharp knife a few times, the knife was twisted in the wound with each stab, followed by a handful of salt being rubbed against the wound. That’s what I’m feeling now. I think it’s time to mandi bunga. Can I pluck the flowers from my garden and put in a pail of water to bath and consider it as mandi bunga already?

But to cheer up myself a little, I try, TRY to be more optimistic. There’s a saying, when bad things happen, good things come. I’m looking for all the good things which hopefully would happen soon enough.

So, *kneeling and pray hard nomore bad luck pls~*

Anyway, you have any good workshop to recommend? Please dun recommend those which is super cheap but not a good job one. Later I ended up fixing my car twice and I will definitely blame you for it! *joking*

Perhaps I should use some gal power to get discount, you know what I mean? *wink wink*

I’m innocent k? I’m referring to give the fella my best shot – the innocent pitiful puppy eye looks(best if there’s some tears too) asking in a manja (pampered) voice saying “Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease~~~~~~~~~~”

Will that work?

I should really get the Messiest Room Award. Seriously. You’ll know why in a short while.

You know pre-Chinese New Year is all always about cleaning the house till it’s sparkling clean which everything needs to be done before the first day of CNY. And yeah.. that’s the only time I clean my room, oh no..clean is the wrong word, I should use the word tidy instead(coz I dun take everything out and wipe away the dust or wipe my windows).

Earlier on you’ve seen how messy my room is.

But this year, with the help of my dear sister, I consider it as spring cleaning(I haven’t been digging out stuff from cupboards and wardrobe for the past 9 years). We She dug out all my clothes and everything from the cupboard and threw most of my stuff away which ended up with more than 10 plastics bags of rubbish collections( I prefer to call it years of collection).

Cleaning in-progress. No trespassing please.

The only thing I love about cleaning is not because my room looks sparkling clean after that, it’s because that’s the time that I could find back all my misplaced stuff and memories.

I’m flooded with all my young memories now(not to say I’m that old now, I’m just younger those days). I found my primary school photos(SRJK (C) Convent Datuk Keramat and SRJK (C) Puay Chai), my stamp collection, my favourite colour pencils, my carving knives, love letters and also the autograph book where we ask our friends to write their contact details and messages for us(there’s no Friendster or Facebook during that time k?), and also the telephone book (we dun have mobiles phones in those time, not like now so canggih, 5 years old also got mobile phone). Ish!!! I also re-read the love letters… Aww… so sweet~

But since IT is so advance now and with the help of Facebook, I managed to keep in touch with primary school mates and we still do have gathering once a year. I’m really thankful there’s Facebook which kept us connected all over the world with updates of where are my friends and what they are up to now. I myself specially like the point that I can stalk them on FB. It’s pretty interesting when you have got nothing better to do at home! Okay… I should really get a life now. This sound so wrong. >.<

Oh yeah… I also found a photo taken with Kit Siang 8 years back at Genting Mary Go Round. I recently went to Genting again with him and friends and took a similiar photo at the same place.

People say that we didn’t change much from 8 years till now. But please, please, please tell me I’m better looking now! I was so skinny back then and looked more like a skeleton bone rather than a human being. So, tell me I’m better looking now k?

So, for those memorable stuff that I found is kept in this Schu box now. I just opened up the box and see the stuff inside again. Awww… so much of memories. It’s really fun and enjoyable to open and read back those autograph books and of coz, love letters. *wink* Nowadays people uses email to send love letters instead, or maybe with Facebook messages.

Oh yeah, I must show you my favourite colour pencils, it’s Colleen Color Pencils. It has 30 pencils with different colours at both ends which means I have 60 colours. This is considered as one of my precious, I think I got it during my primary school times and if you observe closely, some of the pencils are still not sharped till now. I was super proud of my colour pencils at school coz I have skin beige colour to colour human skin on drawings, where most of the students were using brown colour instead.

My sis was happily digging out all my stuff from my cupboard while I was happily enjoying checking out all my stuff. When it comes to this one particular compartment, I told her not to clean it coz everything in there are important to me and I want to keep it.

She ignored me and opened it, she got stunned awhile and then burst into laughter and asked me to check out the stuff inside. I couldn’t help but laughed non-stop too.

There are 10 empty box of contact lens boxes(no more contact lenses inside) and also blank box of contact lens solution. Something important that you must know, I’ve done my eye lasik for over a year already. Each box of contact lens has 6 months of supply for each eyes. So, some calculation here.

10 box contact lens = 2.5 years

eye lasik done = 1 year ago

This mean that I have kept the empty contact lens box for about 3.5 years now.

Did I also mentioned that I’m a great collector of boxes and shopping plastic bags?

I also found my arm floats. The baby Flintstones arm float that I used when I was still in kindergarten.

I also have kept one of my drawings from Secondary, couldn’t recall which year though. My sis forced me to throw it away, else I would have still kept it. So, I took a photo of it to keep as a memory.

Suki must have also recall her puppy memories. While we were cleaning, she went to this small red basket and slept all of sudden.

FYI, she used to sleep a green basket when she was a puppy till I sew her this house.

I took a day or two to sew this ok? Dun play-play. Inside got Christmas light also one.

To prevent the puppies from disturbing my cleaning job, I bought the playpen to kinda cage them with all their teddy bears, blanket, water supply and toilet provided.

They seem to enjoy their new “house”.

But they still do sleep on my bed at night.

Sound asleep, they very much enjoy the comfort of my bed.

With the help of those fragrance and gift boxes, my stuff are more manageable now.

My sis have helped me to tag the boxes too so I could easily find my stuff back.

I also bought a new Ikea drawer to put my clothes, my wardrobe is just not big enough for all my clothing. You wouldn’t believe how much of clothes I have donated out.

All my facial stuf are nicely arranged too.

After a few days more than a week of cleaning, my room is finally clean.

*PROUD* such a great achievement for me. I think my room was never this clean. Told ya earlier, I haven’t been REALLY cleaning my room for the past 9 years living here. Shii… Thank god my mum doesn’t read my blog. At this moment, my room is in the condition of messy again. Just one day is enough for me to turn this clean room into a very messy stage, I dun need to dirty it up on purpose, that’s just me!

Take note, my room also has a full length mirror now. ^.^

You know what that means?

I gonna take more vain photos till you’re sick of it. Nah… just joking, but I wanna show one more photo of myself here now. =p

So, moral of this blog post, I’m such a good collector right? I know I know… Thank you thank you. Let me give you some explanation. I love to keep things, becoz I have this thought in mind which is “What if I need it next time? It may still be in use.” . So, I tend to keep more stuff(I dun consider it rubbish)=D The next time if you wanna keep your things, I think you can pass to me, I can really keep it for a long loooooooooooooong time, I could even forget that I have kept it till you ask from me again. I might charge you a small fees for it perhaps.

But there is no guarantee that my sis will throw it away. So, dun blame me for it later! XD

Oh yeah… Ikea have the contest for room makeover for messiest room months back, I thought I could have won if I join too. =p

I’m sure you have those moments in your life, the total blurness which just strike you naturally and then you realize… Damn! I can’t believe I did/say/think that!

But the problem is, how frequent you got into that blurness? And How blur were you? Does people describe you as a blur person?

Hm… let me tell you my story. This post is inspired by a friend who suddenly pop up on my Facebook and reminded me about my blur story.You know who you are if you’re reading.

1. Many years back, I saw this this compact looking of a 4 wheel drive in a car park which I thought it looks cute and suitable for ladies.

Then I turned to my bestie and ask :” Ehh… that car quite nice la, what car is that?”

Then she burst into laughter.

Bestie :” OMG..Mei Chin!!! That’s Perodua Kembara la!”

Coz I have seen that car god-knows-how-many-million-times on the road.

Explanation : I’m just not good at recognizing things, especially those unimportant stuff, it just somehow get filtered out from my memory okay?

2. Mathematics, it’s something I’m good I was good at, really.

So, what’s 7×5 = ?

My answer was 30.

That number somehow just slipped out of my mouth accidentally. When I said I was good at Mathematics, I mean I was good at applying formulas. Calculation can always be done with Calculators. That’s what calculators are for right?! RIGHT?!! School even encourages the use of Scientific Calculator.

Just FYI, I scored A1 for Modern Mathematics and A2 for Add Mathematics okay? Dun play play…

3. I woke up 1 fine morning, still a little sleepy and preparing for work. As usual, I’ll go to the toilet, brush teeth, wash my face, apply toner, moisturizer, eye cream… non-important stuff. Okay, then, before I change I’ll spray on my pink colour bottle Adidas Deodorant Spray.

So, as usual, take it from the shelf and “Sssphiiii…”.

Hm… How come doesn’t smell the same as usual? How come it seems so oily?

Look again at the bottle I’m holding, look again at the shelf.

Damn! I grabbed the wrong bottle, the bottle I was holding was a blue colour bottle of my hair spray for shine!

Ended up washing up. =.=”"

Explanation for this? I guess I was really too sleepy. As for now, I always double check the bottle I hold before spraying it.

4. Okay..this just happened 2 days back. We had a very full Korean meal (I ate 2 bowl of rice okay?) and he was blasting ATB’s song. Eating so full and listening to such music is annoying for me. So I switched to the Radio and it was playing the music of a song(no one singing at that point).

Then, Mr. BF told me :”Hey, this is my favourite song. I really really love this song.”

Me : “Ehh…have u heard of the new song by Taylor Swift and Boys Like Girls? That song very nice, it’s my favourite.”

Mr. BF shake his head and said:”Aiyoh… It’s this song la!”

Me :” …”

I was speechless and I got angry and turned and looked outside of the window. Then I smiled, smiling at how silly that was. Okay, maybe that’s becoz I dun have music talent?

5. I by far find this the funniest thing I ever did. About 5 years back when I was just together with my current BF, he was driving my bestie back home and I was in the car too. I was sitting at the front passenger seat, and of coz, my bestie is sitting at the back passenger seat.
So, once we arrived at her house, I went down the car quickly, and moved the front passenger seat immediately to allow my bestie to come down from the car.

My bestie then ask : “Mei Chin, what are you doing?!”

Me : “Let you come down from the car lor!”

Then my bestie and Mr. BF laughed so hard, I got stunned for a moment and then I knew how blur and stupid was my action.

You know why?! Damn…  can’t believe I’m telling this… IT’S A 5-doors CAR!!!

Okay… I have explanation for that. Take note I mention I was just together with my current BF. Before that, I was with my ex who droves 3-doors car. I’ve been repeating that action for about 2-3 years. So, u really gotta understand the situation I was in.

I feel dumb by telling this, but I find it funny too at the same time and thought, perhaps my story could brighten up your gloomy day(if you’re having one). Hope you had a great laughter too.

I’ve told mine. So, you have any blur moments of you to share too?